Do you know why you get most upset and reactive inside of your personal relationships?
How many times have you heard people say something like, “I never get this upset or act this way except with my significant other.” “I never behave or feel this way with my friends or anyone else.” Why is that? Why do we get so triggered and the worst traits of our personality come out to play when we are in a committed relationship? Great question and I have a theory about that. What a surprise.
There are three rings in our lives. The outer ring represents our professional relationships and acquaintances. The middle ring is our friends and family members. The inner ring is our committed relationship. Inside the inner ring resides our emotional bunker – i.e. “emotional baggage.” Inside this bunker is all of the accumulated toxic waste of past emotional pains and fears. When we emotionally hide and reside in our bunker, we are blocked from being mentally present and emotionally available for our partner, ourselves and our relationships with others.
In the beginning of a relationship, we spend time evaluating whether we want to allow the potential partner to enter our inner ring. After some time passes, we decide to make a commitment and invite them to become a resident. Once there, our partner will invariably begin to poke holes in the walls of our bunker. Once holes are opened, the negative energy inside is released in the form of reactivity. Reactivity is the release of negative emotional energy exhibited by inappropriate, destructive and toxic words, actions and behaviors. This explains why our worst behavior traits roam wild inside of a committed relationship.
After some time passes, the little holes become bigger and more and more of the toxic energy is released. As the holes become larger, the Relationship Killer WABs – words, actions and behaviors - become more frequent and intense. At one point your partner may have been a little standoffish, then sometimes they were robotic and now they resemble an ice cube. Or, maybe you affectionately remember in the beginning of the relationship your partner was a little emotional, then they sometimes had angry outbursts and now they are a raging lunatic.
One day you look at your partner and say to them, “You are not the person I married. You are like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Where is the sweet, giving, caring person who used to look at me with a twinkle in their eyes and treat me with love?” This is when a relationship enters into the Cycle of Conflict, bombs begin to explode and feelings of safety are lost. This is when we inflict emotional damage; to each other, ourselves and the relationship. This is when the erosion of trust, respect and admiration become reinforced with negative perspectives and attitudes. This is when the relationship slides further and further down into a dark, scary and painful abyss.
As we merrily experience life, we begin to accumulate more and more of these weapons. As we become older, we refine our skills and become marksmen. Now, this is where it gets interesting. The Relationship Killer WABs that are stored inside our fortified bunker are the same reactive behaviors we used as children growing up and also the same behaviors our primary care givers used on us when we where kids. We learned well, my friend and stored up the ammunition just so we could fire our weapons of choice toward the lucky person we love whom we chose to spend the rest of our life with.
Now, here is a key point to understand about bunkers. Once reactivity is released from the bunker inside the inner circle, it eventually permeates the second ring and finally, the third ring thereby affecting all of our relationships.
I know for myself that I used to have a bunker more fortified then one of those German bunkers protecting the shores of Normandy. I stuffed and hide all of my past wounds, fears, distorted perspectives and unrealistic expectations inside of it. And let me tell you, I had an armory filled with my favorite Relationship Killer WABs.
Okay, now we understand that we have this bunker, what do we do next? How do we stop allowing the negative energy from causing conflict in our relationships in all three areas of our lives? Great question! The answer is we have to learn how to become emotionally intelligent. And do you want to know how to begin to accomplish this feat.
This is how to begin to dismantle your emotional bunker, free yourself from your self-imposed prison and quiet your gremlin. This is how you begin to cross your bridge and achieve the ultimate goal – two peaceful soul’s who are best friends during the day, lovers at night and partners for life.
So, the question from the journey is: What do you need to do or stop doing to begin to dismantle your bunker, get out of your own way and continue the journey to become emotionally intelligent?
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