Accepting Bipolar Disorder

Accepting Bipolar Disorder, what do I mean by this?Well I'm certain that a major portion of my overall healing is based on the fact that I didn't fight my diagnosis. I didn't get mad or frustrated. I didn't shake my fist at God and blame him for being dealt such a crappy poker hand. I didn't have a pity party and be all woe is me and my crappy up and down life.Nah, I didn't do any of those things. I just accepted the fact that I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.I was very impartial. Almost like I was the Buddha of Bipolar Disorder and I realized that in the end this diagnosis didn't matter that much. All that mattered was getting out of the hospital, getting healthy, and pursuing my ultimate goal; liberation from medication completely.My feng shui teachers first introduced me to the concept:Where attention goes energy flows.I knew intuitively that in order to survive and ultimately thrive in this life after being diagnosed I had to focus my attentions somewhere. And I figured becoming healthy in body, speech and mind was the best place that I could direct my intentions.Now don't get me wrong, I did direct part of my attention to understanding the disease and the various medications I was on but when I was say meditating, exercising, or eating I wasn't thinking that I was doing these activities because of my diagnosis.That would be the wrong type of attention.Instead I focused on the activity at hand, the joy of it, and the amazing chance to have my life still. Life is awesome if you let it be.I was very thankful that the medication had reigned in my rampaging mind. I was thankful that I had friends who had brought me to the hospital immediately. I was thankful that I had a family, however dysfunctional, who rallied 'round me in my time of need.And I know that not all of us will have the same kind of opportunity that I had but we always need to do the best with the tools that we are given in every situation and moment.So choose to focus on the positive. Focus on this opportunity you have to become something more. Focus on your new task at hand. Focus on yourself. You radiant and shining self. You've been given a second chance to make things right. Don't let this opportunity pass you by.