Things for Long Time Preservation

I just end the longest love relationship in my life. 7 years, it is long enough to change a person. Yes, it changes me a lot, and brings my life countless happiness and precious moments, enough to fill up my memory. But, I've changed since the day it ends.

At the first few days, I could not laugh at all but woke up with tears every single night. Those grey experiences are always lingering in my mind, and can not be omitted. But, god is fair. I still have lots of friends who really care about me, concern me, and stay with me to go through the short cold days before this winter.

Today, I saw the man whom I loved deeply before on the street. He cut his hair, is a little bit different from my memory. He was in the coat which we bought together. At that time, he took my hand in his wherever we went. I feel regretful that I can not hold his hand tightly all the time. And now, he becomes the man I can not touch no matter what I do.

I deleted all notes and words about him in my space, even burnt the whole dairy. But, my friends made fun of me, and said it behaved like an old woman. Even I can not ease my sad now I know farewell is the best way for us. And I'm sure I won't be lonely in the world. A couple of days ago, I felt extremely unhappy because of thinking of him. I tried to make some changes, and cheer myself. I then started to sort out my private collections which are really valuable for preservation rather than the relationship.

1. Shoes

I'm always remembering one words, beautiful shoes will take you to a beautiful place. Once, I never buy high-heel shoes because I scared that I can not control the desire to buy more. Then, I bought the first pair because of the man I loved. In this summer, I bought lots of shoes. Some things like this, which obviously do not appear in your daily life but still can not stop loving them.

2. Perfume

Maybe falling love with someone is just like the burning of my life, and makes me do crazy things. It can definitely behave in shopping. Like shoes, I bought different kinds of perfume this year, including my favorite brand, Buberry Summer, Vera Wang-Princess, and Ange Au Demon. Perfume makes feel comfortable and relax when I am upset or nervous. And I think each of us has the right to be a beautiful and connotation woman by using perfume.

3. Handbags

I love shopping, especially shopping with an adorable bag in my hands. Women are always lack of a handbag. In my room, there is a cabinet filled of various handbags, but it is still not enough. One thing makes me feel most regretful is I threw my favorite bag on that day we broke up. It is bought together with my ex-boyfriend. Although this bag reminds me of him and the happy days that have already gone, I can not help to buy a similar one. And I found it on an online shop. I'm not planning to use it, but it is one of the most precious things in my life, just like the memories in my mind.

To be honest, I'm not an emotional girl. I will sort out things into two categories. One is to be long-term use, long-term preservation and cherished. The other is to use, may be a daily necessity, but does not need to be keep in our heart. And the definition has no limitation but my own preference.