I have long held out hope of my family loving me, wanting me, and being good enough for them to love. There isnít such a thing, as being good enough to love. You should be loved just as you are; not because of what you can accomplish, or have accomplished in the past. There shouldnít be any other reason, than you exist, and are one of Godís creatures.
To feel the love of others, you must first be able to feel love of self. If you are unable to feel love for yourself, from yourself, how can you possibly know what it feels like to be loved by others? How do you accept that love and trust, if youíve never learned to love yourself? It sounds easy to be able to love yourself, but it can be the most difficult, and challenging task, set before us. It is so easy to believe those negative statements we give ourselves. We especially devour the negative things people say about us. Can you even count the times youíve called yourself stupid for making a small mistake, or just being human? How many times have you felt like a loser or not good enough, because of minor errors or lapses, that we would easily overlook in another person, but obsess and make into a huge problem for ourselves? It isnít fair but we do it.
We can make great strides in our life and accomplish great things; yet, it isnít the good things we do, that we remember and savor; itís the mistakes or loss opportunities that we dwell or even obsess on. Instead of building up our self-esteem and self-images we constantly tear ourselves down. Why must we intensely focus on an extra fat roll, or some imagined imperfection? What is this endless pursuit for perfection that we are striving for? It isnít there. It doesnít happen. God did not make us perfect and never expected that out of us. If we were actually perfect, we could be God. Guess What? He isnít looking for a replacement. When he does heíll take out an ad. Until then donít worry about it.
How then, do we begin to accept and love ourselves? First, we take stock. Not of what is wrong with us. What we didnít do, or we should have done, but what we did do. We use compassion and look at all our positive traits and accomplishments. The key word here is compassion. To honestly value ourselves as human beings; not be drawn into the negative thoughts and tapes that run through our minds from the past. Itís amazing how many positive things you come up with if you can be honest and compassionate with yourself. It isnít putting a good face on things. If itís just for one time in your life to not judge yourself harshly but be honest and good to yourself. If you have to start with just one good thing then start with that and add to it day by day. You will find that the list is actually a long one becauseÖface it youíre a good person. Yes, you have made some mistakes you have some shortcomingsÖ relax, your human; you can work on them. One by one not just become so overwhelmed that you just give up. Itís ok to be human, and make mistakes. Mistakes are just lifeís way of helping us to learn. Not, a weapon to beat ourselves up with. Next time you look in to the mirror; try it. Think of something good about yourself, then think of something youíve accomplished; keep doing that until you realize what a valuable and lovable person you are. What if you can only think of one thing a day? Take it one day at a time but keep doing it. What do you have to lose? You have so much to gain. Kay L. Schlagel
I am a 45 y.o. female residing in Nebraska. I have two grown sons. I started my career as a RN but had to retire after ten years due to complications from childhood injuries. I am now working as an artist/author. I maintain a blogspot to talk about the book I have published called CINDY WHEN HELL FROZE OVER at www.mdmkay.blogspot.com, and an art portfolio at www.artwanted.com/mdmkay which showcases my oil, acrylic, and digital artwork.